a state of catharsis

Upstream Color (2013)

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 18:35:04 +0700

Upstream Color (2013)

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Mon, 17 Jun 2013 11:22:50 +0700

Decathexis Conundrum

Thu, 06 Jun 2013 19:05:00 +0700

Hey. It’s me again, the sappy part of me, which is roughly about ninety something percent of my core. Making a futile attempt to deliver these words to the right subject.

Someone’s been taking up residence in my mind lately. And yes, it’s you. Again. Took me a while to see that giving you cold shoulder alone is not doing much of anything. Should’ve shooed you away long ago, shouldn’t I?

I thought I would most definitely be over you as soon as I find someone else to take your place. I didn’t know one’s mind can really betray its vessel.

Yeah, some guys did actually find their way into my fancy. And they’re somewhat okay.

Well, ish. (good god, look at how snobby bitch has gotten)

I don’t know why but I always manage to spot a flaw in them. Make no mistake. I’ve never compared them with you. It’s just finding their good side that’s big enough to overshadow the ones that turn me off seems to be far fetched.

But when it comes to you, the very same minuses can be ridiculously tolerable! I mean… go home brain, you’re drunk.

Or maybe the bar was set a bit too high. In this case, your fault. Solely.

Never, not once, up until now, had one single thing ever dwarfed you into any less alluring and unparalleled than any other entities I have ever laid my eyes on.

Let me make myself clear. You’re not perfect. You’re just… right. You precisely fit in everything I’ve ever dreamed of.

And I miss you. I miss us. (Which was never there but could have happen right before the truth outsmarted me.)

Okay, maybe I’m not missing you. Maybe it’s my bias of you that I actually long for. At least I hope it is. I really hope can find what I feel towards you once again in someone else.

Someone within reach.

But, in the mean time….

June 2013.

Oh and by the way, happy belated birthday.

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Thu, 06 Jun 2013 18:45:23 +0700

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Thu, 06 Jun 2013 18:42:00 +0700

prettysweetgirl17: Blue lace hollow out hook skirt / retro...

Thu, 06 Jun 2013 09:51:26 +0700

prettysweetgirl17:

Blue lace hollow out hook skirt / retro dress on We Heart It. http://weheartit.com/entry/63780004/via/louiespeter

soyymilk: <3 this just made my day a whole lot better

Wed, 05 Jun 2013 09:55:34 +0700

soyymilk:

<3 this just made my day a whole lot better

"Yet you still value the things you’ve lost the most. Because the things you’ve lost are..."

Tue, 28 May 2013 15:55:00 +0700

“

Yet you still value the things you’ve lost the most.
Because the things you’ve lost are still perfect in your head.
They never rusted.
They never broke.
They are made of the memories you once had, which only grow rosier and brighter, day by day.
They are made of the dreams of how wonderful things could have been and must never suffer the indignity of actually still existing.
Of being real.
Of having flaws.
Of breaking and deteriorating.

Only the things you no longer have will always be perfect.

”

- The Efficiency and Perfection of The Lost by Iain Thomas.

"Never apologize for how you feel. No one can control how they feel. The sun doesn’t apologize for..."

Tue, 28 May 2013 15:43:38 +0700

““Never apologize for how you feel. No one can control how they feel. The sun doesn’t apologize for being the sun. The rain doesn’t say sorry for falling. Feelings just are””

- Iain S. Thomas, Intentional Dissonance (via shauntaylor)

Taylor Swift, ain't we?

Wed, 22 May 2013 09:55:00 +0700

Disclaimer: This has zero to do with whether I like her or not. (I’m actually more of a hater side. From day one. I knew it before people find her annoying)

I feel sorry for her putting her personal life on display by singing to the world how the exes have mistreated her. And she’s actually proud of it. I was like, I think I’m having an enormous SMH and and facepalm moment over her attitude.

But, I’ve come to realize how ironic it was that the facepalm should have also been addressed to me. I mean, how many times did you guys find me tweeting shits, quoting a desperate line from Pablo Neruda or weeping over someone you might or might not know of, is having something’s going on with me at that moment?

Now take a look at yourself. You, with testosterones, don’t turn your back on me! I’m talking to you too. Don’t ask me how often I find a lot you do this as well nowadays. I can see beyond your overly manly exterior.

We all—especially girls—has a particular amount of Taylor Swift inside of us. Think about someone you hold most dear, or that guy who mistreated us. We tumblr about it, we tweet about it, we post a status on facebook, or blackberry messenger, or anything about how ecstatic or miserable they make us. At least once. Swift, too, pours her emotion into a song that surprisingly made it to top 40.

The only difference between her and us is the amount of people who knows us and read our hinted writings. Bad for her that the world knows her well and obviously has no problem in pointing out who she was referring in an instant.

Now, speaking for myself, though I still tumblr and tweet about things. And path too. Not something that I’m proud of. Thank God as I get older I finally gained my sense to be aware that it’s annoying to be stuck to read your fuss and it’s not nice to make the subjects of my writings feel uncomfortable.

I don’t do it as often as I used too, by the way. Can I get applause? No? Come on, make a bigger room for error, I still need to relieve my pent up stress, don’t I? In a reasonable amount and manner of course.

PS: But Swift, seriously, that is so mature of you.

simply thought provoking.

Tue, 21 May 2013 16:27:32 +0700

simply thought provoking.

CELEBRITIES ON THE SUBWAY

Mon, 20 May 2013 23:48:30 +0700

lennyroot:

TOM!? ANDREW!? BEEEEEEEN!!!? STAY THERE I AM MOVING TO LONDON!!

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Mon, 20 May 2013 15:32:38 +0700

It appears that I’ve gone completely...

Wed, 15 May 2013 14:48:00 +0700

It appears that I’ve gone completely mental. :’)
Please please please don’t send me hate message xx

"I swear that when our lips touch I can taste the next sixty years of my life"

Thu, 09 May 2013 20:30:21 +0700

“I swear that when our lips touch I can taste the next sixty years of my life”

- Rudy Francisco

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Thu, 09 May 2013 20:25:54 +0700

and there are times i know when i will have to chase youthe...

Mon, 06 May 2013 18:21:08 +0700

and there are times i know when i will have to chase you
the further from my side you go, the longing grows
and though i hate this, i’ll still want you,
i will hate this, but i’ll still want you.

Robert Graysmith

Thu, 02 May 2013 21:34:00 +0700

Robert Graysmith

I really thought she’d soon get over Johnny.

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 11:45:57 +0700

I really thought she’d soon get over Johnny.

fuckyeahfamousblackboys: lovelydomination: crackerhell: pinkma...

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 15:34:05 +0700

fuckyeahfamousblackboys:

lovelydomination:

crackerhell:

pinkmarmalade:

crackerhell:

simplyymisha:

Repost.

Only in America: Black boy found beaten to death in a rolled up gym mat, but “no foul play suspected”.

Yeah

welcome to fucking america

Oh, this must be black privilege

boom

Some fucked up shit.

LETS SPREAD THIS FAR AS FUCK!!!!!!!!